Things have been busy and crazy but also the same routine over and over the last couple of months. Sitting down and reflecting a lot lately and I was just thinking back to my first post of the year... about my focus for 2011 and wanting to be more open.
It has definitely been a year of changes, just as I anticipated. Yet so many things are different than how I pictured 10 months ago. It's been a wild ride of pursuing paths that I thought I was called to, only to be lovingly stopped in my tracks by my perfect Father who continued to tell me I had to wait. After a few months of school and searching, I felt Him nudging me to be still. And I very clearly knew He was telling me that He had placed me at my job for a reason, even if I couldn't see what that was.
He spent the next several months affirming that message even in the midst of chaos and change. He gently whispered to me to be patient and trust in His plan. I am so not good at that. But every timeI'm glad I did. And now, several months--maybe even a couple years-- after the search began He is revealing His plan for me in His perfect timing. A new opportunity came up at work last week and I will be moving into a new position come January. A position I am so incredibly excited about. And my loving Father smiles knowingly revealing that this moment is why I've been called to stay. Oh the affirmation of so much of my struggles the last 2 years!
The following song has been playing in my head constantly over the last month or so and I thought I'd share it. The 2nd verse speaks to me so much and the impatience in me... it is very convicting and a reminder of my purpose- to continue to seek Him and follow Him even when the path is unclear!
Time in Between by Francesca Battistelli
You were there when your Father said Let there be light You obeyed when He whispered Son, You have to leave tonight To spend nine months in a mothers womb Three days in a borrowed tomb
But it’s the time in between That brings me to my knees Knowing you came for me And all that I can't be I'm amazed, so amazed And I thank You for the time in between
Don't take much for this crazy world To rob me of my peace And the enemy of my soul Says You’re holding out on me So I stand here lifting empty hands For you to fill me up again
But it’s the time in between That I fall down to my knees Waiting on what You'll bring And the things that I can't see I know my song’s incomplete Still I'll sing in the time in between